Authenticity

I’ve never cared for conflict
and the stress that it does bring
I would make sure it didn’t happen
no matter what the thing

Instead I would just turn off my brain
and pretend that with all I was just fine
To those that were around
the fact that I agreed seemed to be an obvious clear sign

In my mind creating conflict
was something done with those you hate
For some that may be true
but I was never in that state

Adding to my apprehension was the fear
of the opinions of people I was around
My self-worth was wrapped up in what they thought
I looked to them for my own worth to be found

In time I realized that no one else
could change the value that I had
My own true worth and value never change
no matter who I would make mad

With deep obstacles now gone I am free to say
the thoughts and convictions that I hold dear
I have many things I need to say
I will not stay quiet out of fear

I still don’t care for conflict
But now I choose to in it go
If my motive is pure I enter
for the change I hope to sow

It is a choice I have to make each time
I find no pleasure engaging against others’ strong emotions
It’s a draining task that I would never do
if I knew a better way outside of these commotions

Through this change of authenticity
I’ve seen a better world emerge
No longer do I have to hide myself
my thoughts I don’t submerge

And though it also causes stress
it has made lasting changes that I can see

The power to improve the world I have
​merely by being a fully loving and authentic me